Good for you.
I read this book called Sugar and Spice by Brenda Ashford. She was a nanny in England. She loved her job and the children she looked after. In fact she had healthy lifelong relationships with most of them.
The sad part about her life was that she never married and never had children of her own, although she would have dearly loved to.
Life sometimes can be so unkind. Not that makes it any easier. All I can say is one day at a time…