Is this how you really feel?
I don’t think it’s uncommon, I think along the same lines. In my opinion life is really tough, and one needs to have strength to survive in it. I want to become a published author…I might well go to my grave with this goal unfulfilled, even if I do stay focused.
If that happens, I do not want to come back and give it another shot – my attitude is, I tried but failed. To some this may sound pessimistic, but there is no way I am coming back. I am hoping life after death will bring joys that this current one does not.
My creativity is not for nothing, it will continue on in some form in another realm.