It wasn’t until the end that I realised you were talking about the ocean, and not a person. I kept thinking this is a really bad relationship…and right at the end you mentioned the ocean. ‘Ahh,’ I said to myself, ‘the ocean, I get it.’
I not only got it, I agree with you. The ocean, the sea, the swell have such force, such power. Imagine a tsunami, the damage and destruction it does. Then imagine the ocean on a calm day. For me it brings to mind memories of going to the beach, floating over gentle waves, so relaxed and happy, wanting to stay in the surf all day.
If the ocean was a person (your lover perhaps) it would be like being with someone who had a dissociative identity disorder